One thing recovery and rehabilitation and recovery time have taught me is that two things can be true which, by its nature, is contradictory

I appreciate and sometimes need help, but not too much help. I stubbornly fight for my independence but am acutely aware I can’t do everything

I need help getting to places while I can’t drive, but not planning my time or organising things, that feels controlling not supportive

I might ask for suggestions on things I have chosen, but that doesn’t mean change or select it without giving me freedom

I’m aware I’m a living contradiction.

Having that awareness, but an inability to change it is contradictory too.

Two things can be true; which feels infallible to write and doesn’t sit well with me but it is accurate.