There’s lots of times in life where I need help: sometimes it’s little things like putting on a coat, opening a packet or buttering bread, other times it’s more significant like preparing food and driving me around.

I resent that this is how life is but here we are, as a very stubborn and independent person I sometimes find asking for help difficult. I become hyper aware that it and by extension, I, am a inconvenience for other people (their time, energy and emotion ) and if they get frustrated I find it incredibly difficult and hurtful, I’m already super critical of myself and feel embarrassed to ask all the time. So when we add more it just pains me further and I end up just not attempting things and stuck which adds frustration; there’s no good option here.

I never needed anybody’s help in any way
(Now) but now these days are gone (these days are gone)
I’m not so self assured 
(And now I find) now I find I’ve changed my mind 
And opened up the doors

🎶help – the Beatles 1965*

• I never thought I’d use a Beatles quote, but my library was low on help songs